What music do you listen to when you are totally broken?

I don't mean suicidal, but entirely apathetic, not really caring you
happen to live or die or maybe ultimately regretting your entire
existence in general.

A few of my favorites are: Smile Empty Soul (the self-titled album),
anything by Corey Taylor from Slipknot and Stonesour, and then just
general pop garbage about hating life like "Adam's Song" and "Day that
I Die"

I'd love to hear about yours, please no garbage about me seeking help
or anything like that, I've lived with my brokenness for a very long
time and I get by just fine. No happy music, just stuff you listen to
when you feel messed up. Thanks.